last day of november

still have one month to go to step in new era that is 2012... myth said that the world gonna end and economical also having crisis... OMG... unknown that its already 2 years... like that... this one that i onli know... move forward... have my passion... my courage.... GO GO GO!!! wait xmas and harpi new year and harrrppiii chineseeee new year.... weeeeee =)

nothing

its 7.10am [29/11/2011]... so early wake for later 9.30am class... this week is my last week for this sem... after 2more weeks gonna final exam... i nid ready my bullet. coz my exam falls on 13,14 dec.. combo.. haiz...

nothing gonna say about my relationship, i also dun know u got read my blog anot... from most of the post that i miss you and love you so on... it really what happen in my heart... yes, i do... i'm not gonna say anythg after we broke... its adi past... juz move forward that i can say...

forgets

still have a month... its adi few months... and i everyday did the same thg.... juz dun know wat to say again...

heavy

it juz heavy to let u go,
when u are alone, juz like last time...
really wan be ur side time to time... really wan to do so...

another day

once again at this time i miss you... i post here becoz i juz wat i feel.

New Post

maybe u din read my blog for these whole period, i dun know that...
from ur post, it looks like u have been targeted and u also think that wan to give ur heart to him...
u juz hoping that dun wan the thgs happen again between u and me...
my wound again pain wf the salt that u put...
my heart pain again...

morning

this morning 5am i juz went to bed. i'm tired doin assignment. then 7.30 woke up.
from the time i goin to sleep, i watched back the video clip that i catch from u,
the voice record that i steel from u, i miss that time that ur voice sweet and cute.
even i can fall asleep when listen to ur voice...
it juz make me while i'm at that time when i wan sleeping...
now ntg can be change... juz look forward....

do as i like

i juz follow wat i wan to think,to do and i like...
others ppl say that i dun care anymore...
as long i feel better that being force to do that i dun like...

dream

almost to finish my short sem,
its fast that i can say,
alot thgs happen that i learnt alot also.
this morning i dream of her,
this morning i still can rmb wat i dream...
then i say to myself, it juz onli a dream...
juz forget about it... now i try to think wat i dream...
i cant rmb it... it juz a temp memory...
really dun wan think about it...
its over, nothing can be dream...
it juz like dream, while dreaming,
thinking that it happening,
when woke up, juz onli know it juz a dream...
then forget it... live for future...

let it go...

i can feel my heart getting loose. not so tight than before... i know i started to release the burden...
no longer hope... i love and i hope... thats all... wait my new angel... that would be my last angel...
i will be her last guardian...

you

among the girls that i met before that i'm trying to say...
u r the most special one...
previous one, that i met them when i like then target them..
like, i see then i like... i think most of the guys like this...
mostly la but not all...
but u r different...
why i say so...
1st time i met u blok d corridor while having english midterm...
then 2nd time i met u in study room, and that time u having accounting..
which r u not so familiar wf that subject.
juz u and me know what happen that time...
that time, i'm not so target u or focus u that time...
mayb that time the feeling or timing haven arrive...
i dun know y, it juz happen from day by day...
the feeling that make me focus on u more and more...
i cant write all my feeling here... i juz wan keep apart of it to be my memory...
my secret... my past... my love one...

i'm learning

i'm learning, thats all...thank you =(

hate myself...

i lie to myself that i wan to forget you but i din't.
i lie to myself that i will less love you more but i din't.
i lie to myself that i will be more happy but i din't.
i'm said that to keep a distance between u and me,
coz i dun wan give you so much of stress, u sick, emo, unhappy...
i can feel it too... i felt my heart already link to you...
its hard to tear it off... its pain... its sad.... its emo... its suffering...
easy to say that i can let it go, i will forget it, i would never think of it...
but all these are lies...
i did put too much feeling in this relationship that make me suffer..
i dun know you wait or not waiting...
i just like a stupid waiting for the right or wrong answer...
its not because of right or wrong or not important at all...
 i just want a correct answer that i want really to know... i wan to ask...
the answer maybe yes or no, but maybe i dun know...
why in this world have the answer i dun know...
what kind of answer is this... i really no idea for it...
no one step out the 1st step or even step out also...
no one dare to confirm that it will be happen better...

distance

i choose this way that remain a distance between u and me... to keep away the pain between us...
even though that i din contact you or else... but i can feel u still around me...
it juz like a moon rounding the earth...
from the day till night... from the time i sleep till i woke up then around me till i sleep...
now i'm looking for myself... hope myself din get lost...

I LIKE JUST THE WAY YOU ARE <3

heart

when i saw it, i was felt very pain... i dun know why... it might be not true and playing around one... i believe it nothing... i think that also... but i also feel pain... it's pain... if it really happen, i juz can accept it... but it more pain when it happen... the pain like the wound on my heart juz put some salt... i can feel this pain... i dun know when it will recover... i really hope it recover as soon as possible... but it juz like no progress at all for recovering... u like do ur thg... but i always stalk wat u doin... even wher u work that i also stalk... i'm juz a noob.... why can let it go? all my fren said that let it go... be a normal and happy guy... i also think like that, i also tried to be the normal and happy guy... i try to flirt other girl but i dun know why while flirting progress... i felt the guy flirting, it wasn't me. then i stop flirt... i really wan find who am i... and be myself like before... i know that i'm juz like a mature or ppl said old man... i juz wan a normal, simple and mature relationship... my heart adi lock by someone that i couldn't have the feeling and the guts to flirt others... that's me... truly me... if really that my heart not lock by someone... i know that i juz focus to the girl that i love most... never focus to others while i love the girl that i like most... i'm not writing all these things here to let u all know who am i and what thing make me like this... i juz wan to share and my feeling that i couldn't share to anyone... ppl think'n why not private this post... actually no nid troublesome that do so much thg to private it and dun let ppl know... i juz write and post... for the guy wan read this and comment about this... actually u no nid so kepo and comment one.. it juz my perception and my characteristic....

hurt

its hurt... truly hurt.... i can feel the pain of  my heart.... T.T

11.11.2011

today is the day that happen once for my whole life ever...
without her, my life just simple like before...
i still have my friends... they support me...
thank you my friends... without you all... i'm nothing...
i'm just want to thank you you all...
but believe me, i will be the best all i can...
what i'm thinking now... i miss her...
time will never return backward... it just follow the clock going...
and i know i have to follow the clock go and catch my future...
i also hope that i can catch her back in future...

leave her alone

guys, please leave her alone... i really dun wan her get hurt or stress anymore... this also indirectly make me hurt when i saw her hurt also.. pls... thank you...

sumtimes...

sumtimes i miss you... juz can keep it inside my heart...

worry

worry anot... btw, not to worry about u anymore... as long u safe and healthy... take care yourself... dun make urself too tired...

trying

i'm juz trying to forget u... wat i did that i un-subscribe all ur post and comment. this is the onli way that i cannot see anythg about u that can make myself stop thinking about you... but sumtimes that i also auto go click ur profile and see wat u post and ur comment... it really suffer... really suffer... really SUFFER~ *sound down*
i read ur blog again and again, ur comment and ur info again and again... thinking about ur answer to me again and again... i'm again giving my own answer again and again... he and she ask me, do i still thinking of you? yes, i am... ask me again, got find u anot... i said no, since after the last sms i sent. what i'm thinking rite now... yet u post ur link about ur blog... i read it again... latest one all also wf password... i was trying wat password that u put... mayb u write the things would be not about me... i'm tired de... go sleep le... 9.30am class.. nid go kampar before that time... i know tired, but nid to hang on.... i know i can....

work and study

pc fair done... now wait next month fair... guys, if u see ext hdd and pendrive cheap then u nid buy rite now... after these 2 weeks, all will increase 20-30%... i nid study again lu... がんばって。。

at last

i'm tired...

i juz step out of my 1st step...

i rmb that u said after break up muz chase you back...

that time i thought was ridiculous... 

but i did it..

i failed...

nvm...

at least i tried...

juz back to my own world...

good bye